Friday, 20 June 2003 ♥♥ 00:30 a.m.

Tough day, man, tough day. Pika finally left... my angry entry before this was for her actually. I was so emotional then but I decided to forget about it (for the time being). I'm just so mentally drained right now. I don't want to think about the bad things. Hiks.

MUST THINK JYAANIS!!!
Problems = negative; BUT
Jyaanis = positive

Just got back from the hospital. Everything's fine but I'm still not sure. Left all of my Jyaanis stuff over there and I only brought home the magazines, 'cause I need to update my Junno site.

Speaking of which, I think it's true that I am more inspired to do creative work when I'm depressed. ^^;; So I shouldn't really complain a lot about depression. XD Hahaha. This morning I updated Milk White.com. Nothing interesting there; just posted the news about Kouchan and Junno, the Kame-girlfriend gossip, and POV about ... well, loving Junno. I even finished the image and background designs for the version 2.0 of the Milk White site! Isn't that amazing?! In 12 hours I managed to finish all of the designs. Now, all I need to do is HTML-ize everything and in July, three new layouts will be up: one for my blog, one for Terry's blog, and lastly for the Milk White.

By the way, in case some of u don't know where the credits, links, taggie and everything else, just click the JunAmi Luv Luv Banner. XD Huahaha. And it'll pop-up. ^-^

Now, now, finally I'll write the personal messages that I've been intending to write a yesterday. ^-^ Sorry took me so long but now I can add some more stuff.

MINNA-SAN
Thank you so much for concerning me. I'm so touched by your concern. DON'T WORRY! ^-^ I'm fine really but this week's just been tough for my family. It's all right, though, I think we can make it. I would like to apologize if I sound so emotional these days, ne. I just hope all the problems can be over soon. You'll know when everything's fine! ^-^ But like I said, I'm more creative when I'm depressed so I shouldn't really condemn this state of depression. XD hahahahaha... joking lah...
Ah, thanks too, for giving the compliments to my Junno layout. Although it's not as neat as the previous one, but at least this one here JUNNO ALL BY HIMSELF LOOKING EXTREMELY KAKKOII, RIGHT? ^-^ Hehehehe. I'm narcissistic. I put my own pic there. LOL. Just focus on the left side of the banner in order not to hurt your eyes. Hahahaha... thanks again!

MIC
Thanks for saying such nice things about Junno and my blog layout. ^-^ It makes me so happy when you said you want to know more about Junno. Hahahaha. Kochira koso yoroshiku ne~ atashi wa Koichi-kun to Kinki Kids no koto wo motto motto shiritai kara, oshiete kudasai ne! ^-^

Now... SHOCK!
About Akki, YES! IT'S AMAZING AND FUNNY how people come up to him and say that he doesn't look Japanese. XD Hahahaha... but you know, my friends and I (including Terry & Fi-chan) used to wonder how come Akki doesn't have an oriental look? I asked Ash in the JE Forum and she told me that her grandmother is French! =O Whoaaa, I was so surprised when I found out. FRENCH!!! For me, that's kakkoii! XD Hahahaha, Mic, you know, thanks to Junno, now I like everyone named Jun. You know how I created Za Junnies? ;) Taguchi, Hasegawa, Akiyama, Okada, and Matsumoto. I wish all five of them can perform together. Hehehehehe.

AH! Mic, now that you've mentioned it! I just remembered I forgot to write about Koichi's "thousand-masks" scene! ^-^ It's really cool!!! I was also staring awestruck at the TV screen because I can't believe that he's wearing so many masks, one under the other. Also, the kimono he's wearing... it's like double-double-double-DOUBLED up! ^^;; That's a neat trick. Also the music at that time is energetic! Everything just fits. You see, this scene really adds "color" to the whole musical (well, apart from his kimono being multi-colored... XD Hahahaha!) because it looks so Japanese, that scene. Compared to the other scenes, that one was the most oriental!

Seriously, Koichi-kun wa ningen janai kamo shirenai to omou! XD You see what he wears under his shirt, when the camera showed him preparing before the show?! They put on straps around his body and stuff. That must be heavy! And he has to change clothes all the time. It's gotta be hot with all the costume, make-up and lighting. BUT HE DOES IT REALLY WELL! When the camera closed him up and I saw him sweating like that, I was so astonished. I couldn't speak. I'm like, "This guy has to do several shows in one day, and it runs for about a month... but he keeps on going. The show goes on. That's really his real-life motto, maybe." Jenn says he's like a cyborg, for having that kind of stamina. I'm thinking along the same lines. XD Hahahaha. It's amazing.

Okay, THANKS A LOT FOR EXPLAINING THE STORY! Now I get the general idea of the plot. So there's also a mystical side to the story, ne? With the devil spirit and all?
Mic, I cried quite a lot of times during that DVD. ^^;; Hehehehe. I was embarrassed to admit it... but the part where Koichi fought with Jun, and also when Tsubasa ran away from the hospital and met the ghost of aniki, and when the two brothers reunited and, of course, when aniki's ghost said goodbye and went to heaven... MAJOR TEARS FEST!!! ^^;;; You know that I'm sentimental. Junno cries, I cry. Ueda cries, I cry. SMAP cry, I cry. Even when they don't cry, I cry!!! XD And it's like no matter how many times I watch it, I still cry. XD
Btw, yeah, Koichi holds Tsubasa's hand quite a lot! XD I was thinking, "Ooooh, how sweet! If only Tsubasa didn't have Takki and Kouchan didn't have Tsuyoshi!" XD Hahahaha. LOL! Isn't that silly of me? ^^;; But that's what I thought... and I really think that Koichi & Tsuba look very fraternal. ^-^
Ne, Mic, you really must give the list of all the songs in SHOCK! I want to know the names of the song. ^^;;; But so far, my ultimate favorite is still "SHOCK Swing ~Tour~". You described the scene perfectly! XD My sister came to join me watch the DVD at that time and at first she was sort of saying, "Ah! Not Jyaanis again! Enough already! Who is it this time?!" (But she soon recognizes Kouchan, Tsubasa and Kazama --> she's becoming an expert soon ^^;;) Then that scene came up, and she quieted and said, "WOW!!! WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT?! THAT'S THE COOLEST MUSICAL SCENE I'VE EVER SEEN!!!" Hahaha, GOTCHA! Then she watched the rest of Disc 1 with me. But she got too tired and finally went to bed. ^^;;

Finally, thanks a lot for your concern and support. I'm trying my best to cheer up. ^-^ I try to think about all the good things in life (Jyaanis, Jyaanis!!! XD Hahahaha...) Also, thanks a lot once again for your email. =) I've posted it up at my house so everyone can read and follow the instructions. Hehehe. Arigatou, Mic-sensei!

JENN
Right now it's Friday already in Indonesia. ^^;; I can understand how you feel about the whole Tsuba-Friday thing. But don't worry, whatever gossip they have about Tsuba, it's gotta be a lie!!! You know how that particular tabloid always tries to make sensation.
Speaking of gossips, I'm quite furious about some things abt KAT-TUN now. Someone in the KAT-TUN mailing list has started a topic about Kame's gf and I'm like, "ARGH!!! ENOUGH ALREADY!" @_@ Well, they're idols. They're always center of attention. They are talked about a lot, but not all those things are true, right?
Btw, I don't know much about Tomiko Van. I was even surprised when you mentioned last year that there was a gossip between Tsuba and her. I didn't think they'd be associating in any way. Like, their images are so different. Well, I'm not a fan of her or D.A.I or anything but I've heard her sing. Nothing struck me as special. People say she's beautiful and all, but I dunno... for me, beautiful = TAKIZAWA HIDEAKI. So if Tsuba really does want a beautiful lover, TAKKI'S DEFINITELY THE ONE FOR HIM!!! XD

[Start Pondering...]
Oh yeah, speaking of gossips, that reminds me about the Mak Got (Okay, sorry, obviously, I'm one of those Junior fans who dislike her to the max... ^^;;;) thingie with Tsuyoshi. Well, I thought she was old story... like, everyone used to gossip about her but I thought the "in person" right now is Ayaya??? ^^;; Hah. She's being gossiped about with *EVERYONE* (well, almost everyone =P) these days, which is strange, because before she was in Gomatto with Mikity and Mak Got, she used to be (sort of) gossip-free. XD Hahaha. Btw, Mak Got & Tsuyoshi = MAJOR COMEDY FEST! It's totally weird. Okay, enough about them girls before I get queasy.
[End Pondering]

KAR-KUN
Sorry I didn't get to talk to you long today. I was at the hospital and my battery was being recharged so I couldn't take my phone outside to talk. I realized I didn't give you a satisfactory answer when you asked about the TxT VCD, but anyway, there isn't anything else to say except that it's GREAT! I may be biased because I'm a huge TxT fan and although Avex/JE disappointed me by not showing everything in the DVD/VCD, but it's still worth the money to buy it because after all it's TxT's Debut Concert video and it's the first video that comes out under their unit name! Also, what you *can* see in the VCD is really amazing even though it's incomplete. A lot of great scenes... you know, Takki's famous ero2 dance, Tsuba's Nurete dance, etc. Lots of stuff! ^-^
About the codes for the sub-page, you can just VIEW SOURCE. It's pretty complicated if you don't know the basics but as soon as I can, I'll write you an explanation email. Sorry I can't write you the email now. I'm still quite busy and spend like 80% of my time at the hospital now. ^^;; I promise I'll write to you soon.
Thanks for your compliment for the layout! I'm particularly proud of this one because it's so personal. I even bravely put my picture there! LOL! Hahahaha. JunAmi. ^-^ Hehehehe.
Oh as the reply for your second latest entry: Kanjani 8 were the main stars of the show because that episode was recorded in Osaka Hall. Takki was a guest star but his portion was not as many as the Kanjani 8 guys. I was so ecstatic about the whole show because all of my favorites are there!!! XD Yay!
Sorry, I've quite forgotten already what we talked about on Saturday? ^^;; Hahahahaha... GOMEN, NE? Please remind me again. Write me an email! ^^;; Sorry I forgot.

Finally, to someone out there who still doesn't realize my true feelings even after so many hints...
I really don't like you. You know that I always want to scream whenever I see you coming here? Not that I don't appreciate you coming here but I just plain don't like you. I've tried to be discreet and not show you how my true feelings are for you but you just never get the message. You just keep on making me feel miserable. Maybe I'm too sensitive, or maybe I'm just going through a tough time right now, but you make it tougher for me. I can't be like everyone else; regard everything you say with a casual manner... because what you say to me is not casual at all. It's PLAIN IRRITATING & POINTLESS.
Why don't you try to make sense with me once in a while? Right now I'm giving this "suggestion" to you, like the way you "gave me a suggestion" once, which I didn't take because you sound like an annoying know-it-all. If what you say to me have an ounce of intelligence, I probably won't feel disturbed like this... but the fact is, everything you say to me hurt my eyes, hurt my heart and it makes my mind go absolutely criminal.
So please do me a favor, while I can still be civil to you and try not to hurt you more than I'm probably doing now, LEAVE ME ALONE!!! >____<

MINNA-SAN, most of you probably know about this thing I'm talking about. I once promised myself not to care anymore about this person or whatever this person says or does to me. I'm so sorry if anyone is offended by the thing I wrote above, but those words are not intended to but one person, and those of you who know the story probably knows why. I'm so sorry for making all of you (who've got nothing to do with my personal loathing for that person) but right now I feel my patience running out. ~_~ Gomen, ne. I hope this is the last time I will have to say anything like that again. If anyone does feel offended with what I say, feel free to ask me about it and I'll explain, ne? I LOVE MY FRIENDS AND, MY FRIENDS, YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE!!!

'Til the next time I blog! ^-^ Wish me luck! I wish all of you luck!