Wednesday, 18 June 2003 ♥♥ 05:38 p.m.

NEW LAYOUT! ^o^

Yosh. ^-^ I just made a new layout. It's not a Thaddie layout. It's a more personal layout. I'll change it tonight after I get back from the hospital, or tomorrow morning in case I have to spend the night in the hospital with my parents and sister. Well, in any case, the layout will only be up for about a week, I guess - which is the length of time that I hope my problem will be resolved. ~_~ I just want to get it over and done with.

Actually, I want to write personal messages to people but I don't think I can do it right now... I'll just say that I did ... err... quite all right in the Japanese exam today, considering that I didn't study well last night. But it wasn't really, really hard. By now I'm used to of writing in Japanese so for the composition I didn't have to twist my brain excessively anymore.

I'll say goodbye for now. Bye bye, bloggie. See you with the new layout. ^-^

Tuesday, 17 June 2003 ♥♥ 09:51 p.m.

This is a super sad day. I don't want to talk about my day. I just want to talk about the happy things and would rather not about about the bad things.

KAZAMA SHUNSUKE & NINOMIYA KAZUNARI NI:

OTANJOUBI OMEDETOU!!!

Can you believe Nino and Kazapon share the same birth date and birth year? ^^;; They have the same age! Yet, one looks more mature than the other. XD Hahaha. OMEDETOU! KORE KARA MO GANBATTE NE!

AMI-CHAN'S CURRENT PROJECT:
Converting my sister into (at least) 80% Johnny's fan!

Huahahahahahha. Evil me. Yes, I'm an evil sister. I try to force Johnny's power upon my sister. She's freaking out. But you know, IT HAS STARTED TO WORK!!! MY SISTER JUST HAD HER HAIR CUT! And... guess whose hairstyle she followed... HIDEAKI TAKIZAWA! Omigod, you cannot believe how I felt when I saw her coming back from the salon with her new haircut carrying my November 2002 Wink Up and last year's Seventeen mag with TxT on the cover. I was like this: "No way. You didn't --????" And she said, "Yeah, Takki! ^-^" UNBELIEVABLE!!!! And her hairstylist is the same as mine. XD Hahaha. So, she has Takki's hairstyle and I have Tsuba's. We are the TxT sisters. I keep telling her, "Now that you have Takki's hairstyle, why don't you try to watch Shokura full time with me?" And she made a face. I still have to work on that.

This afternoon we went to PS to hang out and eat something. She treated me (when her hair is good, she is generous, my sis). Hahaha. Then we went to Kino, as usual. I saw this magazine... Fine Boys. On the cover is the DDG Tetsuji Tamayama. KAKKOII!!! Tamayama keeps getting sexier and sexier every time I see him. But I didn't buy the magazine because they wouldn't let me keep it there and take it later when my Popolo and Myojo comes. Blehhh. Bad service, bad bad service. Whatever.
Anyway, inside the magazine I found Jimmy Mackey again. Oh God! Jimmy's now a Fine Boys model. He's been there since the April edition. @_@ I wonder if he's also in the May and June edition! And JIMMY IS SO KAKKOII!!! He's really my sister's type. Contrary to me, my sister just likes guys with dark skin and short hairs who's buff and, if possible, tall. Jimmy's all that. Plus, Jimmy doesn't look oriental at all... that's why my sis is into him. We were drooling over Jimmy. ^-^ I hope I can buy the magazine. I've already asked my cousin to find me the mag in SG. It should be cheaper there, if the magazine exists. Hehehehehehe...
Oh, and also inside the magazine there's a model who looks suspiciously alike to Ryota Uesato, FIVE's bassist. I'm not sure it's really him but the model just looks so like him. I think it's him... he's really cute. ^-^ (Although I'm kind of wondering: why are the male models in Fine Boys look non-oriental? ^^;;)

Turning back in time to 24 hours ago... I WATCHED "SHOCK"!

SHOCK WA SAIKOU DESU

It's such an exciting musical. XD Huaaaaa. I want to watch it again. Gosh, I don't know where to start talking about it. There are so many aspects of it that I want to point out but ... there are just too many.

Okay. First, the cast.
I adore Kouichi, Tsubasa and Akijun. They're all really cool. I don't know how Kouchan does it. I don't think anyone else can do it the way he does. The musical is long, with complicated performances. Even one song takes up a long time. But Kouchan manages to do it. Gee god. The camera often shot him from up close and I realize how much he was sweating. He must be really tired but he doesn't stop. He keeps on going. Show must go on --> HOW APPROPRIATE!
About Tsubasa... I give him two thumbs up. I'm in love with his voice. His voice is just subarashii. I really like his voice. It's not as powerful as Koichi's and he certainly doesn't have the kind of vibration Koichi, or Tsuyoshi, or Satoshi Ohno, has but he has his own style. It's soft yet it leaves a lasting impression on me. I'm just so convinced by his voice. And to think that he was shaking his booty most of the time in that musical, you can bet I was nosebleeding whenever he was on stage.
Finally Za Junnies. Three Juns are here: Akiyama, Hasegawa and Taguchi. Akki's voice is also cool. He also complements Koichi very much in the musical. I really adore his smile. Ii kanji. ^-^ Kakkoii Akki. Hasejun is really cute. Huaaa. He looks totally innocent. Of course, his role is not many but he just looks absolutely cute when he did appear quite significantly. And ... JUNNO!!! ^o^

*deep breath*
KYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!
JUNNO, YOU ARE SO CUTE!!!
Argh. He still has that mushroom-style hair of his in this musical. Gyan. Makes me want to glomp on him and just pet him. Hah. And how lucky are those guests whom he took to dance during the Junior's segment. @_@ Heee. Dang it, how come I'm not there. (Well lucky for him because I'd kidnap him straight away if he comes to me and asks me to dance. XD Hahahahaha...)
I realized Junno was also one of the reporters who came to interview Kouichi in the post-show in New York. Ha. I didn't recognize him at first but then the camera caught a glimpse of him and I was screaming like crazy because he looked totally gorgeous in that black suit. Also, he's TALL!!! All the other dancers were very mature-looking and they were all taller than the Juniors. And Junno was as tall as they were. How adorable!!! I'm just so happy he's there... XD LUV LUV! ^o^

Okay, I'm going to talk about more Junno in my Junno website. Hehehehehe...

Then the music and choreography.
The music varies and so is the choreography. I like all of the slower songs. Some of the up tempo songs I found somehow Johnny's-typical so I didn't find anything particularly special about that. There's this one song I like a lot, thought... it's during the first scenes where Kouichi and his friends and family went for a ride in the car, which was followed by this some kind of an airport scene. I don't know if I'm making myself clear, but anyway the song in that part is just great! When Akki was showing Tsubasa about riding a motorcycle, by using a luggage and Kouichi as a substitute for a real motorcycle, I laughed until I was rolling on the floor! It was just plain hilarious! It was dead funny! XD Especially when Akki took off Kouichi's helmet... LOL!!! LOL!!! Crazy guys!
I also enjoyed a lot the part where they first arrived in New York. So cool! ^-^ I really like that one. And their first show in NY is also cool. Not mentioning... THE TAP DANCE SCENE! Oooooh, that was amazing. Their moves are kind of slow but it's very enjoyable (probably because Akki looked so handsome here... XD Hahahahaha...)
I'm totally in love with that musical score "Kagayaki no Hibi". That score is just so beautiful. I want to have it on CD! Huuu... where do I get the mp3 of that??? @__@ It's such an inspirational song. Gyah. I wish there was more of it during the show.

As for the story, I didn't quite comprehend the whole plot, especially about why Kouchan's aniki died. =O What's up with that?
Another thing that I was confused about... what's the story of that guy who seems to be the husband (??) couple of Kouichi's neechan?? Who's he, exactly??
But the part about Tsubasa in an accident that cost him a serious leg injury, and how Tsubasa felt that it had ruined his life, and how Tsubasa escaped the hospital and met the ghost of his brother, and the fight between Kouichi and Akki about Tsubasa, as well as their joyful brotherly reunion were emotional. *tears* Somehow I like these kinds of stories... ^^;; (Tsubasa was so cute - as in kiddy cute - during the reunion scene...) Huaaa... the part where Kouichi had a nightmare about Tsubasa totally amazed me because Kouichi's interpretation there was impressive. At that point, I realized that Kouichi is a versatile actor. I don't know why but that part really did leave me with a lasting impression.
The penultimate scene where Kouichi's oneesan sang "New York, New York" was another one that gave me the biggest thrill. First of all, her voice is powerful. I wish I had a voice like that! Then the ending was amazing because the figures set on the sparkling platform steps and they made these shapes in the dark that just looked awesome.

THE SETTING IS MARVELOUS!
Hell, I don't know how much the Jimusho paid for that kind of set, but it's the best stage set I've ever seen. Some musicals and plays prefer minimalistic settings for versatility but this SHOCK's setting is both VERSATILE and EXTRAVAGANT. I'm totally amazed. I almost envy the Johnny's guys because *I* want to be perform on such a setting! HA! It's just amazing.

Finally, the showtime. T___T *tears again* One word: "ANDALUCIA NI AKOGARETE". That's the only thing I have in my mind right now. Gyah. I was speechless when I watched that. That was the *REAL THING*. Anyone else who would try to sing that song in any other TV program or show would seem pale to me now that I've seen that performance. Huaaaa. I can't believe it. It's too beautiful. (Mic, I am so sorry. I might have nearly broken your DVD repeating this part over and over again. ^^;;;;) "Andalucia" is definitely one of my favorite Johnny's songs now.

I'm so happy about the whole DVD. You know, this DVD feels the most REAL than all the other Johnny's DVDs I've watched. Okay, not even TxT and KAT-TUN's concert DVDs were able to give me this kind of feeling. I was watching it in my room with a 16 inch TV set and minimum volume (it was like 11 in the night) and yet it felt like I was really in the theatre. I was sitting on the floor and I felt like I was sitting on a soft and straight theatre seat. It was as if I was sitting on the front row of the theatre!!!
Maybe this is all because of my love for the theatre. I like the theatre as much as I like cinema, perhaps even more, and every time I watch a recorded version of a musical, or a play, whether on DVD or video or VCD, I always feel like I'm there. It's probably because I know what it's like to watch something inside a theatre. I also know how it feels like to be up there on stage, performing. It's a wonderful feeling for me.
Once I have enough money to buy more DVDs, I'm going to buy this SHOCK DVD. I don't care if it's expensive, or if I have to save my money for whole year before I buy it. I DEFINITELY MUST HAVE IT!

*hosh hosh*
I'm tired now. XD Hahahaha. It took me one hour and two minutes to write about the SHOCK. I think I'm going to talk about more and more SHOCK tomorrow. I have yet to see the Digest version, and I've only seen the (hidden) double scenes on the second disc. Haven't seen the ones in the first disc. Wah. I'm so excited. ^o^ I'm going to watch again tomorrow right after the Japanese exam. Huah.

Mic, THANKS SO MUCH FOR LENDING ME THAT DVD!

Okay, now I have to go finish cleaning up my computer room. It's so messy I'm not done cleaning it yet! Urgh.

Monday, June 16, 2003 ♥♥ 12:00 p.m.

TSUBA-NAMAE CREW HAS A NEW MEMBER!

Welcome on board Tsubasatile, a.k.a. Michiko Domoto! (XD hahahaha...)
Her name is yet again so appropriate for Tsuba. Oooh... Tsubasatile, as in Tsuba-versatile, which is true.
Tsubaholic's agreed, and Tsubalicious... well I dunno if she can see this message! ^-^
I just found out Tia and Fang want to join in! I didn't hear from you guys so I didn't know you want to join for real... please let me know so I can add your links once you've come up with the names, ne. Should we reserve places for you?? XD LOL!
I'm having so much fun with this namae thingie. ^^;; Heee... Tsuba has so many characters and his name is flexible. Bwah. Indeed, versatile. Does Imai-kun know we're having fun with his name? ^^;; Gyaaaang.

QUESTION!
Has anyone ever noticed that whenever Kouki Tanaka sings his solo song "Do Ya Thang!" which is Go Morita's solo, the name credit for the songwriter is IMA HIDEAKI?? That's what the kanji says in the screen!!! So, was it really Imai (Tsubasa) + (Takizawa) Hideaki who helped Go write the song?? =O Or the songwriter just got inspired from their names? Or is it... zenzen kanke nai kana~ No connection at all?? I found it weird that the names really read like that on screen! Ima Hideaki... (Check out your Shokura recordings, please, if you want to know! ^^;;;)

Actually, I'll bet if Takki wants to join the Tsuba-namae crew, he'd pick up the name "Imai Hideaki". Because he's Tsubasa's wife. ^-^ I want him to use that name. So, Takki, remember, you will always have a place in our blog crew if you come up with a Tsuba name that shows that you're his lover. Nyahahahahahahahaha...

WARNING!!!
The following talk is vain!

^^;; I just want to talk about my hair and my nails. LOL! Hahahaha. You see, since I became a Tsuba-wannabe, I'm more fashion-conscious. My mom is ecstatic. Purely delighted because I take care of my looks better (I'm 85% tomboy actually =P). My sister mocks me. My dad can't care less --> although he does care whenever I go to a hair salon and pay for my hair treatment with the credit card. ^^;;; Last time I had that Tsubastyle haircut and the highlights, I paid with credit card (MY MOM TOLD ME TO, OKAY?! ^^;;; LOL!) When the bills arrived, my dad told my sister (who then told me), "Is this Amanda's haircut bill? *This* much for a haircut?! Oh my God. Which salon is this. Who cut her hair?" ^^;; Sorry dad.
Anyway, back to my vain story of hair and nails. I like to style my hair now. I don't style it necessarily to look like Tsubasa, but now it's longer anyway so it's lost some of the Tsuba-effects... but to me, it was shocking when I found out, I styled my hair for an hour before I leave the house and yet I'm not going out on a date! ^^;; Recently, I've also been thinking of changing my haircolor (again -- Terry must be tired of hearing this; in the three years we've been friends, she keeps hearing stories about my haircolor; from plum, to black, to red and then to blonde and back again to black! XD) and this time I want a daring color. For the past year, I've toned down the color of my hair to dark colors such as brown or plum, because in Italy I was a blondie.

I WAS A BLONDIE!!!

Dang it. That's probably my biggest sin in life in terms of haircolors. ^^;;;

Anyway, the next time I go to a salon, I should ask if they can cut my hair either Tsuba's current style, and as alternatives, I choose Koichi Domoto and Junnosuke Taguchi's styles. And I'm going to make my haircolor turn PINK. Yes, pink. I think pink is outrageous. I like outrageous!

About my nails... I ACTUALLY MANICURED MY NAILS. @_@ Hick. I was so shocked to read about Tsuba's nails in Jenn's blog, because it says there Tsuba does his own manicure. WHOA. Sassuga Tsubasa!!! (HEY! That's a cool name... Tsubasassuga! XD Hahahaha...) It's *PAIN* doing your own nails. The cutting and shaping part is okay but then when it comes to polishing it... and then doing the tiny bits of images on it... how does he do it? It took me forever to polish my nails yesterday. I just wanted to give it some shine so I did it with a transparent polish. And it took me an hour to apply it. @_@ Gyah. Sometimes Tsubasa can be more of a girl than I am. ^^;; He should do my nails. I want him to do my nails so I can sit back, relax and enjoy the TV (with Takki and Junno) while he does my nails. ^^;;;

Gyaaaan... Fi is fierce... She wants Okada too. XD Huahahaha. Greedy girl. She gets Kimura, Tsumabuki, Nagase and Odagiri already and she wants Okada too?! Hahahaha... I don't mind scanning it, tho. Anything for Fi, who's such a lovely girl when she's not being cold to me. (Is she going to smack me?? =P LOL!)

Whoa. New request. Nefretiri wants Takki. I think I can do that... but I need to prioritize Arashi for the Crew first, and then the Anan pics first. Gyah. Kino PI can be annoying, blah.

I forced Junno and KAT-TUN pics to Terry. Muahahaha. She was suffering but it didn't turn out to be too bad for her because she did say, and I quote,

"I do understand your obsession, though. If I would be into Japanese, man, Junno would be mine."

BABY BUNNY IS INDEED POWERFUL!
Hahahahahahahahaahahaha........ I'm so happy with that comment from her. XD (But please don't say Bunny looks like the Taiwanese dragon. XD Huahahahahahahahaha...)

I better get out of here before I'm late for Japanese lesson. ^^;;

Sunday, 15 June 2003 ♥♥ 07:10 p.m.

Uwaaaaa... so nice to be back home and alone. XD Hahahahaha. I spent the first half of the day with two special guests; one of them coming to my house only for the first time ever. Then I went out for a while to meet Poppy and Sakai-san. My sister's not home (the usual summer camp preparation business at her friend's house ~_~) and I get to use the computer for myself now. ^-^ Hehehehehehehehehe.

Mic and Aki, I'm still deliberating whether to close it or not but now I'm more to the intention of *NOT* closing it. I think Mic is right. I do like writing and I don't really care if my writing sucks or not. I just like writing so much. (Like Mic says "NO REASON" --> this is a very good motto!) It just happens to be like that. I want to continue doing what I love most, and I don't need a reason to do it. If I love it, I'll do it. If I feel like it, I'll do it. Also... I want to pour out my thoughts and emotions here in this blog, not mentioning maintain the good friendship I've made by blogging, so I think if I won't go all the way to actually CLOSING the blog, but probably just go ON HIATUS in order to do something refreshing with life. That hiatus should happen somewhere between end of June and early July, when my mom goes on surgery and my MC job has to take place for the Matsuri Festival. ^^;;;

Oh and I want to shout out a special cheer for all of my friends (you know who you are!), especially Mic & Aki!
GANBATTE!!!
I think everyone in his or her life has many problems, whether it's big or small. Life *is* like that. That's just the way it is. There are the good things and there are the bad things. However, we as humans are very lucky to have the choice of making a difference in our lives. Fight for your life! Be strong and don't let anything come to you. I think if we keep have an optimistic attitude towards everything, we won't have a problem of facing any problems! Just keep on smiling, ne? ^-^

I've been looking at the new magazines again. JUNNO JUST KNOWS HOW TO SPOIL ME! ^-^ Look at him in Wink Up. He's wearing a yellow tie! Yellow is my color theme for this summer... I try my best to go out in yellow (it's a positive, vibrant color! It cheers me up!) and now, Junno's looking so sexy in his black shirt and yellow tie standing in front of a yellow-ish background. And I think somehow KAT-TUN knows just how much I'm crazy about sunglasses these days 'cause in Ueda's "Ore ni iwaseru" session, they're all wearing sunglasses! Ooooh, so cute!!! Cheeky smiles here there and everywhere! I'm so happy to see these boys. ^-^
(Okay, so maybe this is the work of the stylist but I'm still very happy! XD Huahahahahahahaha...)

I have scanning plans:
- Junno for the The Milk White site, and for myself, and to show off to Terry
- Arashi pics for the Arashi Blog Crew
- Tsubasa for Yona (Note to Jenn, have you got all the July issues of the various magazines? Everything? If there's a pic of Tsuba you haven't seen, just tell me and I'll send it to you...)
- Jimmy Mackey for my sister
- Toma for Cece and Kar-kun
- Kimura, Tsumabuki, Nagase and Odagiri for Fi
- Okada for Cecil

Anything else? I think I'm going to spend the rest of the evening writing Prequel and also scanning pics. Might as well scan now when I'm not sick with the scanner. XD Huahahahahahahaa... And I'm definitely not sick with the prequel. XD Hohohohoho... ^o^

Oh by the way, Cece I was wondering where you are! XD I'll reply your email ASAP. In case you don't see this message, I'll explain to you in the email. ;) Hehehe. For you and also for TERRY, who's going to be busy with uni life, GOOD LUCK! IN BOCCA AL LUPO! (It's Italian, literally meaning "(to be) in the mouth of the wolf!" XD)

I will ganbaru as well for my nihongo no shiken next week. Hope I'll pass again with good grades. Thank God the kanji test is over. 71.25... not a bad score but I could've done better!

Sunday, 15 June 2003 ♥♥ 01:40 a.m.

NICE DAY!!!

KYAA!!! ^-^ I'm so happy today. It's perfect day for me... it gets 99% out of 100 of my scoring. Well, that 1% is missing because I had to wake up earlier than I had planned and therefore was feeling quite sleepy for the rest of the day and I was pissed because my family had bought pizza and they didn't share it with me. ^^;; Hahahahahaha... LOL! Oh and, just a few hours ago, I got a small burn from the toaster while I was pulling out my cheese toast. ~_~ Hiks. Now it's hurting like anything even though I had put ice and put cooling paste on it.

So today... I FINALLY MET MIC!!!
My twin sister is so nice. She is so kind and kawaii and generous. I'm so surprised when she gave me the SHOCK DVDs and also Koichi-kun's dorama. =O Hua. And I had nothing to give her. ^^;; Gomen, Mic. I was really impressed by Mic's Indonesian languange ability! Wah, she speaks really fluent Indonesian. =O Kar-kun and I thought that she spoke better than us. XD Hahahahaha... and I adore Mic's hair color. It's awesome.
I really spoke a lot in that meeting. I feel like a big-mouth. ^^;; Heeeee... gomen ne, Mic, Kar-kun, I just got so excited... ^^;; Next time we meet, why don't you two speak and I'll listen, ne~
Oh by the way, I TOLD MY DAD ABOUT OUR MEETING!!! And he said, "Good, you've made some great friends. But did you use the credit card or the money for Starbucks?" XD LOL!!! DADDY!!! @_@

Kar-kun, you really did find the VCD you want?! Wow!! Duta Suara is an awesome place, man. I'm telling you. You'd find unexpected stuff in there... and the price is good too. Cheaper than some other places that sell "rarities". Sorry can't reply to your sms, there's something wrong with the battery. ~_~ Dang it. I should get a new phone... ^^;; Instead of changing phones every time. And your expression earlier, man, when you said, "Omigod, you changed phone again?!" was so funny! ^^;; And, no, Handa-kun is *NOT* Johnny's. XD

After the meeting at PS, I didn't know where else to go because Poppy couldn't come today and I don't want to show up alone... maybe we'll come for meeting tomorrow with Sakai-san instead (still another one?! >_<), so I called Kino PI and asked them ONCE AGAIN if my magazines have arrived. BAKA!!! The magazines have arrived but they didn't call me!!! DOH!!! And this Kino PI we are talking about. They're usually more professional than Kino PS. Luckily, the sales assistants were really friendly so I didn't bother complaining. I even asked them to save up Kimura's KAI-HO-KU for Fi (Fi's fussing about it a lot so I decided to help her! XD She did say yesterday that she thought I could *command* people at Kino to get her that book! XD LOL!). So I got my July Wink Up and Potato (Duet still hasn't arrived! >_<).
Mic must be my lucky twin star 'cause right after I was telling her that my magazines are arriving late while I'm already desperate to see KAT-TUN (read: Junno) on WU, I actually got it!!! XD Arigatou!

So I have the gorgeous, luscious, droolable WU July with KAT-TUN in it... *palpitating* And Junno... THERE ARE LOTS AND LOTS OF JUNNO!!! He's the center of attention here! There's this pic on the contents page in which Junno's posing to the camera but the others are looking at him! Gyaaah, KAKKOII!!! And at the news pages, there's the snapshots of the photo shoot... there's this one pic where Junno's showing of his ARM'S MUSCLES to his friends and Jin was like touching it. *close to fainting* Then there's this pic of him - another snapshot - in which he is looking terribly like a lost bunny! KYOOOOOOOOOOTE!!!
As for Potato... *faint* *tears* Can it get any better? I swear, KAT-TUN is so good-looking. I want to hug and kiss them all. I am so jealous at the little girl who poses with them in the main photo shots. Argh, little girl, why are you so lucky to be in Junno's arms?! >_< Junno is holding her up with his two arms... *cry* I want his arms around me. >_<
^^;; Okay, okay, sorry for my foolish talk.
But I really like their clothes. They're wearing white in both magazines. KAKKOII!!!

The other ones who look handsome in the magazines... TSUBASA IMAI! My niichan Asa!!! Omigod, in WU, I wanted to faint seeing how cute he is! Gah. I seriously don't understand this metamorphosis of him. A few years ago, he looks ... well ... not cute. ^^;; But now, he's turned into something of a wonderful, gorgeous, cool species of human being who wears absolutely fantastic oshare clothes with a very fine and neat hairstyle. I seriously think Takki is so lucky to have him and the other way around. Takki is beautiful too. I wish them all happiness. Right now, I just can't think of anyone else being Tsubasa's partner other than Takki, nor can I think of someone else being Takki's partner. Those two gorgeous creatures deserve to be together. THEY NEED TO BE TOGETHER!!! DDG UNITED RULES!!!

I was practically squealing and screaming in the car on the way back home. My driver was seriously annoyed me and I could tell that he was dying to throw me out of the car. ^^;; I've been really annoying in the car lately... like, singing to Darius's songs out loud in the middle of a traffic jam (to him, my singing is a cappella because my voice is not accompanied by music) or complaining a lot about the traffic when we both know that it's rush hour so it's bound to be jammed at that moment. ^^;; Maap ya Pak Narto... XD LOL!

Then in the evening... SHOKURA! This is the episode which was recorded in Osaka Hall! Guest star was Takki and there were loads of performances from KANJANI 8! Not mentioning, each units get to perform FULL SONGS!!! KAT-TUN sang "Harukana Yakusoku" full! Then... FOUR TOPS FINALLY PERFORMED TOGETHER!!! Ureshii! Minna wa totemo kawaii! And KANJANI ROCKS. *dreamy* Hina, I love your Kansai-ben. It's so cool! ... about Takki's performance, I thought he was ready to strip down and do the ero2 but he didn't. LOL! It's kind of sabishii (lonely) seeing Takki alone. I like him better when he's with Tsubasa, and same thing goes with Tsubasa. I want to see TACKEY & TSUBASA, BOTH OF THEM. They have so many Luv Luv thingie going on, which actually inspires me! ^-^ Anyway, back to Shokura, there's this one segment that I like so much. Each member of Kanjani 8 get to read messages to the other juniors (Kanto Jr.) and the messages were really hilarious! And I just noticed V.West's drummer, Ohkura, is really shy, ne? He was hesitating to read his messsage for Yamapi. Then the Uchi read his message for Kame and then Ryo for Ueda! That last one, RYO WAS SO CHEEKY! Ueda didn't even get to say anything. XD
Just one thing: WHERE IS MY SON, NAOYA?! >_< He was missing. And Yaotome Hikaru was introduced instead as a member of Ya Ya Yah!!! DON'T JOKE WITH ME! DOES THIS MEAN NAOYA AND HOSHINO ARE *OUT* OF YA YA YAH?! I am so upset. ~_~
Now, Junno talk: JUNNO CHO-KAKKOII! I was literally crying (yes, I shed tears!) when I saw him smile. I was crying because of many things when I saw him, such as the possibility that he's not going to appear in ANY shows after the KAT-TUN concert, the fact that his smile is so beautiful and the realization that he's become such a significant part in my life the way Pippo Inzaghi used to be - perhaps even more. I couldn't concentrate on his performance. I was just crying every time I see him. ^^;;;; That was emotional. XD Hahahaha...

I have a confession to make... yesterday (and well the past few days) I've been considering to close this blog. Not just go on hiatus, but really actually close it. I was thinking, "How boring my entries are!" This is my honest opinion. I was thinking, "I keep saying the same things over and over again. It makes myself sick reading it. I never talk about worthwhile issues. And my English is terrible. I'm so bored with all of this." But then I think, well, it won't matter if I close it and then open a new blog. It will still be the same. I will still talk about the same things again and in the end, I might have the urge to close the blog again.
I don't know what made me think that way... probably I was tired or disappointed by my own life. I feel like I should be doing something more important in my life. For example, GOING TO UNIVERSITY AND STUDY SOMETHING USEFUL FOR MY FUTURE. Hmm... or maybe I was just disappointed with some people I met through blogging, and with some people in general. Oh well.
ANYWAY.
In the end I'm not closing this blog. Probably I'm going to design a new layout (already did actually, but still terrible). It's gonna be Thad Ragan. If not Starbucks (yes, as in the drink). Or if not ... FRUITS! I'm crazy about fruit-y layouts! It just looks so fresh! Strawberries, limes, lemons, oranges, watermelons. Ooooh, nice, nice! ^-^
And maybe I'll write some more fics in this blog. Johnny's Academy fic, Kimi wa Pet version JunAmi, and TxT Super Luv Luv fic. ^-^ (And Cecil, Feli, Jane and Fara are dying to smack me with dough beaters because I haven't finished the Johnny's Jr. fic and get crackin' on the Arashi fic! XD Fi and Ter will also want to kick my ass for not finishing Laurentiis. XD)

I better go to bed now. Long day tomorrow. There are so many things to do!!! >_< Hope I don't fall apart before the day ends. ~_~

Btw, I forgot to say... CECIL, your Tsuba-namae is so cool!!! TSUBASAH! ^-^ That's the first name we invented for Tsuba, us girls at the KG Forum. Basah = wet; Indonesian. Wet Tsuba. Sounds kinkee. Funkee. XD Hahaha. And it gives a sensual feel adding the "h" at the back! XD Like, "Tsubasa... ah!" XD Cheesy, yeah, I know. But I just remembered we used to address Tsuba with that name. ;)

Thursday, 12 June 2003 ♥♥ 11:29 p.m.

100% RESPECT FOR KOUICHI DOMOTO!

(Pardon my Japanese...)
MIC, Kouchan to Junno no koto wo oshiete moratta, hontou ni arigatou gozaimasu! Atashi wa sugoku ureshii desu!!! TOTEMO URESHII!!! Soreni sono hanashi wo yonda ato de sugu Kouchan no HONTOU NO FAN ni narimasu. ^^;; I have total respect 100% for Kouchan now, but this is not only because of the Junno thingie... it's because I'm so touched by the fact that Kouchan, although he's famous and all, he still bothers to remember his juniors... also the fact that he's very talented and very funny! I haven't been able to love Kinki Kids or Kouchan or Tsuyoshi that much before I knew you and some other KK fans in the JE Forum... and ever since I knew the people in the JE Forum, I've begun to open my eyes for KK's stuff. And now, this story you shared with us... IT'S DEFINITELY SEALED OFF MY LIKING FOR THEM!!! I love all Johnny's artists and groups, and now Kouchan is among the top ones!!! THANK YOU, THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR LETTING ME KNOW WHAT A GREAT PERSON KOUCHAN IS!
(I wish Kouchan and Junno can become closer... just like you and I are close friends (though our first meeting is not until Saturday! ;) hehehehe...) ^-^ Mic, ti voglio tantissimo bene! (translation: I care about you so much! ^-^)

I think I'm going to smile a lot from now on.
The arrival of the calendar, the re-discovery of my old magazines which has Thad's pics in it, the two new magazines I just bought, and the surprisingly-not-so-disappointing result of the kanji test... CHE BELLA GIORNATA!!! (What a wonderful day!!!)
I'm fully recharged! ITSUMO GANBARIMASU!!!

Thursday, 12 June 2003 ♥♥ 02:35 p.m.

CALENDAR... KIMASHITA!!!

Yay! ^-^
After having to struggle with the multiple wrappings of the package and I finally opened it!
I'm sort of speechless right now and probably don't have much comments on it. Then again, what is there to comment about?? When you see a pic of Hideaki Takizawa and Tsubasa Imai, you don't do anything else but drool. That's what I'm doing right now. Drooling. In silence. I'm calm. Maybe later tonight I'll go crazy and sleep with this calendar. XD Huahahahaha!!!

Thanks Leti! ^-^ I owe you (I do, literally... =P) and I'll pay you back soon! But thanks for ordering it and delivering it for me! ;)

Me go call Rei now.

Thursday, 12 June 2003 ♥♥ 01:50 a.m.

^-^
Tsubasa has made it to number 13 in this fashion poll. I was fussing about it last week... and I kept promoting the poll to everyone I know who'd be interested. Nyahahahaha. Tsuba had only, like, what... 16 votes? The last time I went there. But just now I checked again... he has 266 VOTES!!!! ISN'T THAT SAIKOU?! I'm so happy!!! ^-^ Finally, he's getting some recognition!!! (Or is it just because the Tsuba-fanatics keep voting over and over again for him, like I did? ^^;;; Or maybe dear Takki found out about the poll and he himself voted excessively and made other people vote for Tsuba too?? XD) But anyway, I hope this makes up (at least!) for his disappointing result in the Best Jeanist poll 2003. ~_~ Go, Asa!!! Go, niichan!!! tsubAMI and Takki are right behind you!

I was feeling rather moody before... even thinking of *that*... but then I called Fi and I felt much better. She inspired me. We were reminiscing the good ol' days. We were talking about Matthew McConaughey and how silly we used to be, hating him and all just because he was rumored to be dating Sandra and we both wanted her to be with Keanu. XD LOL! That was, like, junior high school days. Then we talked about Matthew's "drawl", and it's become our habit that every time we talk about "drawl" we always refer to ... THADEUS RAGAN!!! ^^
Now you're asking who in the world is this Thad Ragan? Well, I don't know who he really is actually. XD LOL! No, seriously, I don't have much info on him except that he's from Tennessee and he used to be a model for teen magazines like YM and such... and he also did a lot of fashion shows all over the world. One magazine described him as to having "a smooth Southern drawl" and that he likes stew as his fave food. XD
Then today, while I was still chatting with Fi over the phone, I found this website that had something nice to say about him.
Right after that, I went upstairs to open up all the dusty boxes to search for all of the YMs and Girlfriends I have just so I could look at his pics again. It took me half an hour before I finally found the right box and I was covered with dust all over my body when I did find the pics I wanted. Apparently, I had cut all those pics from the magazines and put them in a special envelope that was labeled "THADDIE" (I cannot believe I wrote that on the envelope! XD) which was stuck in between one of my old Italian course books. XD
Now that I've found his pics, I'm going to make a Thaddie layout. I think I'm going to call it GO SOUTH! Nyahahahahahaaha...

Fi and Terry's first comment to me regarding Thad was, "HE'S ALIVE?" --> XD LOL!!! Well, duh. ^^;;;

I have so many things to do now, I'm feeling nervous about them. The thing that I'm most nervous about is the Jakarta Matsuri Festival. I'm so nervous about it is because I'm totally excited about it. Sakai-san has just sent me another draft of the program and when I read it, I feel a great surge of enthusiasm. Just looking at what we are going to do there is already so overwhelming for me. I hope Nakagawa-san doesn't change the program anymore because this one is already KANPEKI!!!
Btw, this is a "volunteer" job I got from my friend. An MC job at this Japanese culture festival. The writing in Italian I wrote yesterday was basically about the meeting I had to attend for the festival, where my friend and I got introduced to the committee, that was all-Japanese. ^^;; I've been attending these meetings and every time I always meet someone new. I believe I'm the youngest ever who participates in the comittee, because I'm only 20 and there are people who look like they're 60 or something. ^^;;; (And I almost cannot resist to ask them, "Sir/Ma'am, do you have a son my age?" XD) Huahahahahaha. Demo minna wa totemo yasashii desu. ^-^ I feel so happy for meeting them. They are all very polite and professional... one of them was even already friendly enough to Poppy and me. He gave us invitations to this party, in which Sakai-san will launch his book (Sakai-san is slowly becoming my idol here! XD) One thing I noticed, every time I come for a meeting, they always offer me an abundance of food. XD Since these meetings are always held in restaurants, they always have plenty of food around... strangely, I never feel hungry there because I always feel too anxious or excited about the things. =P Hee...
I really enjoy the atmosphere of this festival preparation. It's friendly. So different from JakArt. Maybe because the committee is way more organized than the JakArt committee, so that when we come for a meeting we already know what we are supposed to do and we don't have to argue anymore to settle on things. I dunno. I just like the way these ladies and gentleman work.
I really hope I can do well in this job. MC-ing... it's such a big thing. >_< Although people tell me that I look very confident when speaking in public, they don't know the dread of it!!! I'm dreading it... I can't think of how I can make myself speak in front of so many people (hundreds, perhaps even close to a thousand, are expected to come to this festival... ~_~). There's also the challenge of having to understand what Sakai-san says in Japanese and then translating it to Indonesian. Gyaaaah. How much bigger a challenge can I get?! @_@ But as always... GANBARIMASU.

Strange, I don't feel sleepy yet. ~_~ Hiks. Maybe I should go read one of those magazines before I go to bed. The first foreign mag I bought was back in the Australian Dolly mag, October 1995 issue. XD So, I've been collecting mags for... ALMOST EIGHT YEARS!!! ODDIO!!! QUANTO TEMPO E' PASSATO!! =O Judging from the way I keep buying these Japanese magazines now... I think I can make it to ten years of collecting magazines. ^-^ Hehehehehehe...

Wednesday, 11 June 2003 ♥♥ 07:08 p.m.

Che lingua uso adesso??

Back to English. Let me save the embarrassment from Enzo anymore. XD Huahahaha. That dawg!!! Oi, for your information, Enzo, I didn't study Italian for nothing! Man, I speak more languages than you do, ass! XD Huahahahahahahahahahaa...
Oops, excuse me, everyone, I just got an email from my Italian friend Enzo (who apparently keeps coming here to check just in case if I write something in *his* language) and he was saying that I should go back to Italy because now I write Italian like a "principiante" (beginner). (You dawg, Enzo, my Italian is better than your Indonesian! XD Huahahahahaha...)
Thanks to that entry in Italian, I feel like I want to go back to my old language school in Italy. I even want to visit my first Italian teacher in Italy. Hiks, hiks. ~_~ Miss them so much. Mr. Pinto, Stefano, Paola, Massimo... Amazing, all these years studying Italian, I've only had four teachers?! Well, actually, four human teachers and a mountain of books. ^^;;; All in the course of five years. Gah. That should've been one teacher at least for around one year but it was like, over than four years of book teachers and only one year and three months of human teachers. ^^;;; Then again, Italian is not as complicate as Japanese. Gosh, if Japanese could only be less complicated. ~_~ Hiks.

ITALIA, MI MANCHI!!!!

Which reminded me, I could only answer 55 questions out of 80 in the kanji test today. I cannot believe I failed to remember some of the earlier kanji... >_< Hua. What a big loss. BIG, BIG LOSS!!! My fault. It's just that when you try to study 15 chapters of something, by the time of the exam, you just remember the last five chapters and forget the first ten. @_@ Oh well... 55 isn't a bad score... but even among those 55 I wasn't convinced with some answers. ~_~

TxT CALENDAR, COME TO ME!!!

I'm so happy. Leti told me yesterday. ^-^ The calendar I ordered through her account had arrived. Now all I have to do is wait for her delivery. ;) Heee... LETI, ARIGATOU GOZAIMASU!!!
In the end, I bought that calendar. ~_~ I wonder if Rei's already got hers. She also ordered it from YA. She was the one who persuaded me to buy it. She said, "Ne, Ami, you should buy it for Imai's sake. Don't you know how good he looks there? I'm buying it for Takizawa's sake!" XD Gyaaaaaaa... her words ate me. Okay, so I decided to order it. =P LOL. (Gomen, Daddy, I will have to spend more money...)
^-^ URESHIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Now I better go drown myself in the sewer. I'll go play with the rats. At least rats don't talk. Or at least if they do talk to me, they don't talk about *it*. @_@