tomatoe diary's b'day treat v.09____

Tuesday, 9 September 2003

*unanimated sigh* Fuuuuuhhhh... these days I'm really strange. Like I have no will to live??? ......... iya, probably that's a too-strong expression. All I know is that I haven't been motivated to do anything lately and I don't look forward to anything lately. I mean, what is there waiting for me tomorrow? Nothing. Even when I expected something important like an exam, it doesn't come to me. Yes, there's the gathering. I am so excited about it but I keep thinking what will happen AFTER the gathering. Like, do I come back home, do I have anything else to do, what next is there?! Maybe I'm thinking too much? I already told myself to live day by day, and not worry so much about the future. Well, I don't even worry about the future. I just don't think of anything. @_@ Not even my birthday. To be honest, I don't even want to celebrate it (this is probably because I've been disappointed once again by my parents). I used to look forward to be 21. But now, I don't have any feelings anymore. ~_~ So weird. And these days if there's one thing I feel stronger than anything else it's SLEEPINESS. I want to sleep, sleep and sleep. ^^;; Or maybe is it because usually I don't sleep well enough that I can't get enough of it until I can finally sleep soundly? Is this weird? I have a feeling it is. I better stop talking. LOL.

You might need somebody, yeah... be my love... I'm loving you, everytime I'm loving you...

Hehe. Sorry SPEED mode. :P

Soooooo... ^-^ I cannot make screencaps anymore. :P Bleh. So I'm just going to talk about that PV without showing any screencaps. LOL. Well, the PV is CUTE! So cute! ..... eh, chotto. I haven't said what PV I'm talking about. It's Arashi's HADASHI NO MIRAI. Finally finished downloading it yesterday, and now I'm attempting ONCE AGAIN to download the other videos. *sigh*
Anyway. As usual, the boys are cute, they're trying to be cute in the video (and yes, the successfully become cute)... oh but actually SILLY and RIDICULOUS, more like. ^^ Huahaha. And because they are silly and ridiculous, they become cute.
Catchy lyrics, the song has. The song itself has grown on me. I like bridge parts: donna tsurai toki demo kake nukete kita hibi wo hitori janai to omoetara and itsumo furi kaeru toki sasaete kureru dareka wo, shinjiru koto ga dekiru kara. AND WHO CAN RESIST THESE WORDS: Hajikeru Passion! Sousa NO REASON! Todoki souna ashita he mirai no kakera wo atsumete yukeba ii and Takanaru Tension! Kitto NO REASON! Todoki souna ashita he hadashi no mirai he kono mama yukeba ii.
Who I want to kiss in the video: OHNO!!!
Someone tell me. Is he really TWO YEARS OLDER than me?! ^^;; He's just too silly to be true. Man, seriously, I would like to meet this guy just to know if he's silly in real life or if he's actually got an sense of sanity in him! *ROFL* ALL HAIL OHNO! XD YEEAAHH! *kiss* Who cares if he's not as handsome as the others, or not as popular as the others... I WORSHIP HIM!
Btw, matsuJUN is good too. Yumm. Watching this video I kinda decided that he's my #2 fave. There's just something about him that I like. Maybe it's the way he looks in the white jacket (kakkoii), maybe it's the way he smiles when they guys were in bed (charming), maybe it's the way he sits in the bathtub and lifts his feet up (casual) or maybe I'm just impressed by him since a long time ago already.
Err, Sho looks 3 years younger than his age! ^-^ Kawaii yo. :P He looks FRESH! Ahh, Sho, you're the same age as me!!! Make me look younger too! :P LOL! I am in love with Aiba's hair... and I laugh a lot at Nino! Oh and... NINO HELD OHNO'S HAND AND PLAYED WITH IT! ^-^ It's sooooo cute. :P Nino looks like a child, and Ohno looks nonchalant. It's really like father-son! Hehehe. (Though probably when it comes to mentality, Nino is the father and Ohno is the son...)

Speaking of Arashi, they releasing their concert DVD and they're going to film PIKANCHI II! HURRAH! I think the title is going to be Life is hard DAKARA Happy. I am not too sure, but I think it's like that! I'm so going to buy! (Now, why is it that there is news of Arashi releasing a DVD and filming a movie already and there's nothing of TxT?! Seriously, Johnny's and those two are driving me INSANE. If they don't come out with anything before November, I'm going to Japan myself, kidnap T and T and then force them to sing something -- even if it's just Happy Birthday or Twinkle Twinkle Little Star -- on a tape recorder and then I will publish the tape as TxT's second single! >.<)

Maybe I should listen more the HADASHI NO MIRAI and perhaps maybe I'll be inspired to do something? To look forward to something in my life?? ^^;; I don't have the single, though. Should I buy? I think I should. Check. Buying the single. ^-^ Fufufu. I'll place an order with Daigo's MARIA.
How about icons? I think I should make more icons to feel a bit more spirited? *silly thought* Yes, icons could be great. Hohoho. Arashi icons. TxT banners. KAT-TUN banners (I find it difficult to make a KATTUN icon -- too many of them in one group :P). And how about Tsuyopon icons? Right. I'll make those soon. ^-^ Any request? Well, who reads this thing I'm writing anyway. :P I'll make what I want to make. ^-^

Demo, mainichi onaji koto wo kaiteru... hontou ni korede ii no ka? ~_~ Wakaranai.

++ Tomatoe & matsuJUN ++
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Monday, 8 September 2003

Am I late? I hope not! Well, anyway... here it goes...

AKI, OTANJOUBI OMEDETOU!
Yay, yay! Aki wa hatachi ni natta ne~ Ii ne~ All the best wishes for Blurry Sotong #2 from #1 & Za Junnies! (special kiss for you from Matsujun! XD) ^___^ Hehehe. =)

Yeah, I blogged just to say this. :P LOL. Blurry Sotong Family member dakara ne. ;) ;) ;)

++ Tomatoe & Junnies Babies ++
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Sunday, September 7, 2003

ICONS! ^^

++ Err... I forgot from which places these pics came. Just took 'em from the pics I have in my harddisk. Feel free to use it. Just save them on your own server. If you can, link back to Tomatoe Diary. If not, I'm not going to bite. :P ENJOY! ^-^ ++

Just saw SPEED's performances from various tv shows (downloaded from windjp) and... SUGOI. *blink blink* I'm impressed. They've grown more mature and certainly developed the vocals a lot. They can actually harmonize now and the squeaky voices are gone. Yay! Wonder if they'll regroup for real and not just for this charity concert thingie. ~_~ Okay, forget that I was once jealous of Takako and despised hiro's voice, but now, I like them all and I want to see them together again... I really think these girls are great. None of the recent girl groups could ever be in their league. Maybe I'm exaggerating, but these SPEED girls, they're ALL good-looking, they all can sing (now) and they look totally cool. They're "seniors". They've been around for a long time... so they can put up a great performance.
"BE MY LOVE" has grown on me. At first it sounded a bit weird but after hearing it for a couple of times, I began to like it. Now I can't stop humming it.
Btw, Eriko is sooooooo beautiful. I want to have her looks! :P LOL. (What is it with me wanting to have the looks of people with the surname IMAI?!) And Hitoe is so sexy. She's still daring, as usual, but she doesn't look as "macho" as she used to be. Now she looks tough but also sexy in a feminine way and she's by far the coolest.

Oh just one thing, though... as pretty as these girls are... their bodies are still nothing compared to Tsubasa and Daigo's! LOL!

Speaking of sexy, check this out.

I can't believe Anan actually made those two pose with a girl. What a provocative pose!!! Hehehe. I dunno, but if I were a major fan of those two guys, I'd freak out. Seriosly. ^^;; If I see Junno/any of KAT-TUN or Takki-Tsuba (especially Takki-Tsuba!!! >.<) pose like that with a girl, I'd tear up the page. ^^;;; No, seriously. (Well, unless I'm the one sandwiched in between them ... LOL!)
But Nino and Pi actually look good here. Leave it to Anan to make someone look good on their photos. :P I actually kinda like the other picture where Nino and Pi are both lying down... now, that's sexy. (Why not Takki-Tsuba!!! :P)

Anyway, yesterday I bought three issues of Anan and one of CD Data. Was bored. See, when I'm bored, other than making silly icons, I spend money. Which is much more dangerous than making icons, of course. LOL. Since nothing interested me in terms of CD and clothes, I turn to magazines. Yeah. So I bought those three Anan and the music mag. CD Data has Daigo and SPEED in it, so I grabbed it immediately. It turns out that Daigo started to write in a column in CD Data called DAIGO-STYLE. Basically in every edition, he'll talk about something bla bla bla. On the insert text in this particular issue, Daigo mentioned that he brings his digicam at all times. Oh gosh. That just confirmed my wildest thoughts about him: NARCISSISM. Hahaha. So, yeah, we're accepting his membership application to the Narcissistic Club. LOL.
(Oh and, yappari... TSUNKU LIKES DAIGO!!! XD Huahahaha........ XD)
Actually I bought Anan for the food pictures. YUMMY!!! And the Antenna items. Dang it. The stuff they have are so cute. >.< I love Anan pictures. They're pretty. Also, there are some artists that I like in Anan. *sigh* I didn't want to buy the one with Tsuyoshi Kusanagi in itu because there were only two pages of him inside, but I ended up buying it anyway. @_@ Because I like him a lot. >.< Oh well. :P

And speaking of shopping... ^^;;; My dad just gave me this new credit card this afternoon. That was very BRAVE of him to do so. ^^;; Knowing my shopping habits, I thought that by now if there was anything he wanted to do about my credit card is cancel the one I have now instead of giving me a new one. ^^;; Oh well. Guess this means he still trusts me and I mustn't abuse the trust. =) Have to use wisely, ne~

Did I tell you I had yet another dream of Junno & KAT-TUN the other night? *sigh* These dreams are getting out of hand. @_@ And somehow Daigo managed to slip in the dream as well. ^^;;; Well, not physically. But I remember that there were mentions of him in the dream. But this latest dream of mine was quite comical and I didn't feel tired because of it. Huahaha. I've written it down on paper yesterday morning and I'll just have to type it up for Junno.com later.

++ Tomatoe & haseJUN ++
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Saturday, 6 September 2003

Ahhh, so bored. :P Yesterday I was dead bored. Nothing to do. The only serious thing I did was talk to the admin staff from my language school who told me that the Japanese exam was canceled and postponed until Monday. In fact, I think the reason for my boredom was exactly that. The exam canceled. @_@ Hee. I'd rather study frantically for it stay at home quietly. ^^;; The rest of the time since yesterday afternoon when I woke up up until now is stay in my computer room doing completely nonsensical stuff. Bwahahahaha. XD

Actually, my boredom lead me to actually develop my feelings for Daigo Stardust (yes, here we go again. In case you haven't noticed, he is currently MY BOOM item. :P LOL!) Found these links that made me really happy. ^-^
<<Link 1: Stardust in Radio Show>>
<<Link 2: Stardust guest-starring in STAND UP>>
<<Link 3: Stardust in some kind of bangumi (radio? tv?)>>
<<Link 4: Stardust virtual greeting card from Yahoo Japan>>
<<Link 5: Stardust, what are you doing?>>

And I made these:

++ All pictures taken from Stardust's Official Website except for the Daigo Stardust logo, from a random website. ++

Not bad, huh? From someone who was (and still is) EXTREMELY BORED. ^-^ Fufufu. Of course, right after my computer conked up several times in the process of making the icons, I became more motivated and lost some of the boredom. And... LOOK! That's not all!!! I still have more!!!

++ All pictures taken from Seventeen mag, October 2002, issue no.22. ++

Nyahahahahaha. See how bored I am. Icon-mode. Icon-mania. I don't know what got into me. Oh wait... hang on... there is still more!! ^-^ Just so you don't think I've forgotten about Junnosuke, I also made some icons of "him". .... SORT OF.

++ Rabbit pics taken from random websites that I found through search in Altavista. Just did it for a joke. :P ++

.... well, after all, Junno is bunny in my heart!

Okay, okay, tomorrow, I will make real icons of Junno. ^^;; And the Junnies. I told Ahmel I would. :P I'll do three for each (sorry, can't do five for each Junnies! @_@ That would be muscle suicide! LOL!) I have to find cute pictures of Junnies first, though... I don't have many of Aki, Hase, Oka and Matsu in my computer so have to scan some. Pyon. :P

Oh btw, I don't mind if anyone wants to use these icons for avatar or anything else. Go ahead. But if you want these silly, half-crappy icons, save them in your own server, OK? And if you're kind enough to the oh-so-bored me, please link back to this blog. If not, it's also okay. Just don't sell the icons or anything. :P THANKIES. (Feeling a bit generous today. Usually I'm fussy and stingy. But today because I am extremely bored, I become generous. LOL.)

Other than these icons, the highlight of my day is just helping my sister find a matching skirt for her outfit that she wore to her friend's party and reading the translations and also fanfics of Yami no Matsuei manga. Man, I love that one. It's definitely one of my faves. Gives me an idea for a layout. But I think I'll go bug Fi for a layout. Hehe. *lazy* Gyah. Now I'll go quietly to bed and try not to think so much about DaigoxJunno fanfic. ^^;;; (Yabai na~)

++ Tomatoe & taguJUN ++
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Thursday, 4 September 2003

Hmm, I just read this interesting article in an Italian magazine called COMPLIMENTI PER STRADA: Vi Danno Fastidio? It's an article about how Italian girls react to guys who whistle at them or compliment their looks on the street. I think this kind of "activity" is typically Italian. When you walk on the street and looking great, there's a possibility that guys will stop, check you out and whistle or say something complimentary to you. The problem is, do you appreciate being treated like that?

Most of the Italian girls who give their comments in this article, whether they are from Northern or Southern Italy, think that it can be a compliment but most of the time they don't pay attention because it's not something important. Perhaps they react like this because it's quite a common case for them to experience something like this almost everyday. It's not a big deal.
But imagine a foreigner like me, or at one time my Japanese friend, getting this kind of treatment by guys passing on the streat. We found it really weird and it's so embarrassing that we felt torn between escaping and smacking the guy who did it to us.
For me, it's quite nice that someone notices my look but it all depends on the way the guy "appreciates" me. If he says something stupid, I'd love to smack him square on the face. If he merely whistles, I probably won't regard him. If he smiles at me, then I'll definitely blush. But most of the time, in my case in Italy, I don't regard a guy who does such thing to me (because most of the guys I met whistle. :P Thankfully.)
Mind you, it will be a completely different case if the guy who whistles look like Filippo Inzaghi or Tiziano Ferro, or Junnosuke Taguchi or Tsubasa Imai. LOL. :P

This reminds me of that story I had with my Japanese friend. She's a Kansai-jin so naturally her Japanese for the most part is Kansai-ben. She's way older than me but looks really young. One day we were walking on the street and this guy whistled and said, "Bella figa!" (means, "pretty girl" --> the literal translation is a bit rude, so just accept "pretty girl" as the translation :). I was stunned (because it was my first time expriencing "complimenti per strada) but my friend certainly didn't take it lightly. She turned around and looked at the guy challengingly. Suddenly she said in Japanese, "AHO'!" (Aho = baka = stupid :P) The guy got the message, apparently. He frowned and said, "Aho!" (in Italian "aho" is pronounced "ouw" - something like that :P - and it's an exclamation like, "hey!"). My friend glared at him and turned around to leave. The guy was saying something in Italian but I didn't stop to hear what he said. LOL.
I just thought it was a funny experience.
One, there's a linguistic aspect to it - as I discovered the meanings of a homograph word, AHO, in two languages. :P Two, there's a cultural aspect to it - Italian guys really do this kind of thing to girls. It's not something that happens only in movies. It's a real life thing.

Hontou natsukashii. Mi manca tantissimo l'Italia. :P
Well, now back to the Japanese book. :P Hee hee.

++ Tomatoe & Jun5x ++
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Thursday, 4 September 2003

I declare myself a fan of DAIGO STARDUST. Huahaha. Kyaaaaa.... DAIGOOOOOOOO!!!!! HE IS SUPER UNIQUE. I still can't get over his blow-a-kiss thing on Pop Jam. I'm definitely going to get myself STAND UP episode 8 to see Daigo. Fufufu. ^-^ Just saw him inside CD Data and ooooh, he looks really cool! XD I can't wait to open my own absolut-tomatoe.net 'cause there will definitely be a special section for Daigo!!! Hee hee. ^-^ Daigo, Daigo, Daigo...

Is there a fanlisting for Daigo Stardust?! ^^;; Ha.

My connection is very bad these days. >___< It took me 12 hours to make an update yesterday. Well, the updates were for Junno.com so I try not to complain. That website is my personal pride so I don't feel like I suffer too much from updating it. >.< I was deliberating whether I should put a more extensive private section because I don't want to show too much of myself there because it's a Junno website not an Ami website. But in the end I opened the Private Zone anyway and it's still full of Junno-related stuff. LOL. ^^;; Haa. But YUME MONOGATARI is opened there, so all of my Junno/KAT-TUN dreams are there --> five files already. My latest dream about Junno n baseball is there. :P Pretty weird dream. Not romantic at all! Huahaha. Now I'm setting up the yume section in my personal website for my other Johnny's dream, but mostly it will be Tackey & Tsubasa. I've been thinking of opening a TxT website, but Jenn already has one and Lein's website is also full of TxT stuff so maybe I won't go that far as to make a full TxT website. *still thinking*

Just came back from a rendezvous with Kar-kun. Still very much Handamaniac and he was fussing over Junon. :P Lol. Good luck, mate! He's now addicted to Starbucks Caramel Frap. Told you it was good. ;) Hee hee. The last time I met him was a month ago. He and I have another project that has not been realized. I forgot to talk about it to him but I'll remind him of it.

Ahhh. I also have new ideas for a new blog layout. I'm not going to use a Johnny's artist layout for a couple of turns in the future, I think. I have food layout coming up, then probably I'm going to use K-pop artists and Daigo as layout models... and probably I'll get an idea for a bunny layout (like a real rabbit :P). Nothing personal. I just think that there's been enough Johnny's in my blog for almost a year now. :P Time for a BIG REVAMP.

E poi, a proposito di polemica sul blog crew, a dire la verita' non so cosa altro da dire. Adesso sono un po' triste che tutti si attaccano, che siamo diventati quasi nemici --- e' strano che un semplice blog crew possa creare cosi' tanto problema. >.< Se l'avessi saputo, non l'avrei creato. @__@ Mi dispiace tanto a dirlo, pero' mi sento proprio cosi' in questo momento. Spero che non si continui. Sono stanchissima di avere gli stessi problemi con gli altri fans. Sara' un po' stupido, tutto questo. Vabbe, sto zitta. Tanto nessuno mi sente quindi e' inutile scrivere lungo. @_@
LASCIATE PERDERE! FATE AMICIZIA!!!

Oh btw, I just realized that SPEED is back together again! ^____^ For a concert?! YAY!!! Ahhh, natsukashii ne. I miss the girls singing together. They've all grown up now. My favorite members are still Hitoe and Eriko, but now I think Hiro has become an even better singer. Takako's voice is also much better so I appreciate her more. :P I feel so silly now for hating her just because she dated Issa. ^^;; I missed SPEED's performance in Pop Jam last Sunday! >.< it turned out to be such a star-studded Pop Jam with SPEED, Chemistry and Daigo in it. I think there was also someone else there who is very famous but I'm not sure who.

Ah. Must study for Japanese test now. Tomorrow is the big day. >.< But why am I listening to A-Teens?! ^^;;

++ Tomatoe & okaJUN ++
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Tuesday, 2 September 2003

I had another long dream last night. With Junno and several other people. Therefore, I am going to start a new section in both Milk White and Tomatoe Pages called YUME MONOGATARI (sorry to rip off the title from TxT's song but I couldn't think of anything better than that ^^;;), in which I will write about my weird dreams. Obviously, Junno dreams will go in Milk White Yume section, while other dreams go to Tomatoe Pages Yume section. Yosh. Ganbarimasu.
Well, in brief, this time Junno's dream is pretty weird considering that the story is basically about me and Junno playing baseball and then we did a little time travel. What more, I have this rival with the strangest name of all: HANNAH FILLYHANA. ^^;;

I talked to my sensei about my dreaming habits (since he's also studying for a psychology master's degree in University of Indonesia). Basically, the reason why I keep dreaming extravagantly about Junno, Johnny's and practically everyone I adore is because my imagination is very high and I don't get to express it sufficiently. Plus, he says that I tend to think too deeply and too much that when I go to bed I bring all these thoughts even to my sleep so my dream is basically a form of materialization of my thoughts (I am a bit confused with his highly technical explanation about this so this paraphrase might be incorrect LOL! :P). In addition, he thinks I also have a high ability to obsess (bad? It sounded bad to me when he said it. ^^;;;) So anyway, I told him that I don't want to dream like that so often (because it makes me tired!), then he gave me an advice which could be simply said in this way: "Ami-chan, you need to get a life." I reckon I do.

See, I really think I need something else to occupy my time other than this obsession for J-stars. I need to get out of the house more to do... whatever. My thoughts and energy are wasted on things inside of my little world, so I don't think about anything else. I don't think about real-life. Well, now that I realize all this, I have made some kind of resolution (funny how Mic also wrote a resolution in her entry today! ^^;;), as follows:

1. I'm going to learn how to cook (I'm bad in the kitchen, so I really must work hard)
2. I'm going to register for French course (I find that I still love French language! ^-^)
3. I'm going to pick up tennis again (after two years of not playing)

Basically, I need to stay out of the house for more than three hours a day so I don't dwell in front of the computer all day long or look at Junno and Johnny's 24/7.
And I somehow feel better after talking to my sensei about all this. My sensei is truly versatile. =D Nyahahaha.

All right. Let's get to ENTERTAINMENT!
I finally finished listening to all my new albums. I like them all! Rip Slyme's album sounds much more "hip-hop" than their first album. The beats are more up-tempo and the songs are more dynamic. I have to listen to it again to give a complete review. But Naohito Fujiki's third album is better than the second one! Whoa, I am really impressed. I sometimes thing Nao is a better musician than actor and this album convinces me of it. I mean, I prefer seeing him with a guitar on stage better than acting on camera. Even in photos I see in magazines, I think he looks better in photos of his concert tour reports rather than in studio photos where he poses nicely for the camera. His charm lies in his music, ne~ ^-^ And this is the Nao I like. The first song on 03 is a spy movie-like theme and his second song is called SPYDER. Funky! I love these two a lot. :D And the So Long version that is included in this album is different from the single version, and I like this one better. ^-^ Fufufu.
So, yeah, I feel better now about the CDs knowing that I paid expensively for GREAT MUSIC. =) I think the next BGM will be a song from one of these albums... I'm not sure if it's definitely going to be Porno Graffiti's song or not, because there are other songs too that I want to put as BGM from the other two albums.
Speaking of CDs, my friend is going to Japan and I asked her if she could buy me Daigo's Maria, she said she could not promise but she would try to buy it if possible! *crossing my fingers*
As for the next CD to buy...

TACKEY & TSUBASA, PLEASE RELEASE YOUR SINGLE/ ALBUM! ONEGAISHIMASU!

Oh, btw, I finally found out that ViVi model who looked like Tomiko Van, who is supposedly the model girl who went out with Tsuba (and therefore making everyone else think that Tsuba is going out with Tomiko, because those two look alike). But since we all know this is just petty gossip, no need to believe it at all.
Anyway, the model girl turns out to be one of the ViVi models I dislike most. Hahaha. XD (No, I already disliked her even before I found out she was rumored to be going out with Tsuba). I don't know why I don't like her but I just don't like her face. There are other girls prettier than her and deserve to be a model more than she does. Her name is Sayo Aizawa, one of those Caucasian-looking Japanese models. She's three years older than Tsuba.
<<See pic here>>
What do you think? Does she look like Tomiko?

Anyway, now I'm going to start rearranging my magazine piles and try not to rip off Myojo 10 for being so sucky. But oh wait, the magazine does have on very good thing in it: Joshima Shigeko. Hahaha. He's so adorable! Joshima is one of the best J-leaders. Johnny's should really make a new unit: NUTTER LEADERS. That would include Joshima, Nakai, and Ohno (err, Marsa is not crazy enough to be a nutter although he's a leader). I would definitely support them!

++ Tomatoe & akiJUN ++
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